I joined OLGA on May 21, 2013. Since then I haven't played any kind of game. I will make a longer post on my blog about what all I feel I have achieved in this time.
The desire to play (or at least log on to the game forums) is still something I carry. Some days it isn't there, but just like the first two weeks, I still find myself wanting to log on. Some nights I fall asleep thinking about the game.
The difference is that today I have a LOT MORE happening in my life, a lot more people, a lot more coping skills, a lot more in terms of 'real life' progress. I have a job now, and I've been a part of many real life initiatives that matter to me. Today I have a lot more knowledge of how the addiction process is, and I am aware of my own reactions and responses, and not only do I 'know' what is happening more quickly, I am better trained in my response. Today I know that when the craving is intense, I need to not fight it by trying to escape, or burden myself with guilt or responsibilities, but simply go to a safe place and just hold myself till the feeling passes. And if I cannot find a safe place by myself, then to ask for help from a recovery buddy, or sponsor, or the site, or a real life friend, and tell them what I need or what the problem is and ask them to help me get through this weak phase for me.
Hugs and love to everyone here!