Just a progress report. im very happy to say im been completed game free for a little over a week and a half now. I find myself not lying to people anymore, which is a very scary concept to me. we spent alot of money over the weekend ( the wife and I for christmas ). We ended up not having enough money in our gas fund to cover the week. I found it really hard to tell her the truth that we would be needing to pull gas funds from our other account. I actullay was shaking and tearing a lil bit worried that she would go all ape shiiiit on me. Low and behond in the end she was upset but not ****ed or furious like I expected. All she really had to say was "thank you for telling me the truth" and gave me a hug. That feeling alone is what im striving for, the feeling of not letting people down, of being someone others can lean on and trust.
Ive been reading the NRSV bible on my table the last week. My wife actually surprised me when i came home last nite and she said I could have one of my christmas presents early. What do you know it was "The Life Recovery Bible" made for people in recovery programs. I stayed up really late reading it. The extra lessons and learning experiences, psalms and other tid bits just keep me gripped. But more than anything else it made me tear up to see she really does support me and is willing to help in any way she can.
So thats my progress so far. I am happy with it and know i have a long way to go still. When im not at work I will still be coming to evening meetings and sharing my experiences, and listening to others experiences as well.