Hello guys and girls, men and women!
My name is Rico and I am a game addict. I am 19 years old.
I played games since my early childhood. At this point I keep it short and come to the point.
I never seriously thought about quitting before. I once had a almost game free period for 2 1/2 months, because my PC was out of function and I couldnt effort a new one for a while.
Anyways this was just forced and actually i wished to play games.
This time I WANT to quit , because I want to live in a new better and happier way.
As long as i remembered quitting games actually always had the Sisyphos effect.
On the verge of actually quitting, I choosed to play games and felt back to almost the beginning.
Ive been an addict more or less willingly. This time I will push the stone to the top of the mountain. I will push it even further: To the End of the world.
The Sisyphos effect, the curse will break. Not only for me, for you guys too. Wish for it!
Wish to be happy! Wish to live in your very own new way! If we want to quit WE can!
We are writing DAY 4 of my Gameless world.
Its the 59th after worlds end. We survived. We are alive.
Lets live even longer,
logging out Rico!
Great Post Cadr, and great to hear about :)
I'm glad you're making such progress and I agree. I used to do so much work to prove to others that I could get by without games, or that I could function and then, as you alluded to, I would let the rock roll down the hill. I would start gaming again and forget about my responsibilities and my goals. My life wouldn't matter anymore. Gaming would be all that mattered. And when I found myself crushed suddenly (though it was surely obvious from the outside looking in) by the boulder that was work and my life, I would cave in and game more.
I became sick and tired of being sick and tired. I'm glad to see you that you seem to have done the same. Keep coming back Cadr :)
Last game played: April 24th 2014
I've never been an addict willingly. It was all against my better judgement. However, I am one anyway, like it or not.
I had to look this one up: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sisyphus
Well guess what? in recovery we get to leave the boulder down at the bottom and climb to the top with our friends to see the exciting new view.
Come to the meetings and recover with the rest of us.
Sysyphus! Haven't heard that one in a long time...
When I was a teen Existentialism and the works of Sartre were popular among my peers. As an atheist the idea of life being a unending struggle was appealing, as was the dignity of continuing to push the boulder up the hill even knowing I would fail.
I am not sure if this view contributed to my addiction, but it did not help my recovery. If one is condemmed to game addictively, endlessly, then our only option is to accept it and seek nobility in that condition. That to me is a prescription for continuing to game addictively - not one for recovering from gaming addiction.
It was only when I began to realize that my so-called fine mind, good education, and precious intellect had brought me to the depths of despair and hopelessness that I had the sense to seek another way:2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
This is how I broke the curse and so began my own journey to recovery which continues today.
I cannot say that every day of my life I feel happy, joyous and free! But I no longer have the obsession to game and in that sense the curse is broken.
Olga/non member since Dec. 2008 Check out my latest video on Gaming Addiction and public awareness https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g-6JZLnQ29o
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