Time to kick this addiction for good!

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Time to kick this addiction for good!

Hello OLGA! I am starting on the road to recovery and since reading the stories of others helped me, I figured I would share mine here as well.

I'm currently in my 20s and have been gaming since I was a wee lad of 7 or 8 (SNES days). I was an exceedingly shy kid, and this shyness lasted well into high school. Since I didn't have much of a social life, video games were my hobby and passion. I've done them all: FPS, RPG, MMORPG, RTS, turn-based strategy, you name it. I'm not going to go into specific games because I feel like mentioning them might trigger withdrawal/longing for some people. Even though I eventually overcame my shyness (may write more on that later), a lifetime habit of playing video games doesn't just go away overnight, so I have continued to play into my college years.

At some point, it finally occurred to me what a waste all that gaming has been. Aside from some increased hand-eye coordination and fast typing skills (thanks MMORPGS), what do I have to show for all those days-on-days of sitting in front of the PC/console? Those countless hours could've been spent on so many things: reading books, spending time with friends, my family, etc. Acknowledging I had a problem and realizing just how much of a timesink gaming had become caused me to derive less pleasure from playing video games. I actually noticed how much time was being lost while I gamed and this only further reduced the satisfaction of playing. Eventually it hit a point where I think I was gaming just out of pure habit, because it was what I and my brain was used to, not because really enjoyed it anymore.

As I indicated before, reading and hearing the stories of others really helped me to acknowledge I had a problem and fear the results if I were to allow my addiction to continue. I think it's easier to say "wow, you have a problem and need to get over it" to someone else than it is to say the same to yourself. Reading/hearing the stories of people losing their jobs, spouses, friends, family, etc. to their addiction was a wakeup call because I realized I had the same problem as them and the tribulations they were going through could easily lay in my own future if I didn't kick the habit.

So, fast forward to the present. I have deleted my video games, Steam, etc., and am looking forward to being video game free for the rest of my life. I have a wonderful loving family, great friends, and am on the verge of completing a degree I am genuinely interested in and getting married. I have a lot of things going for me in my life, and I'm not going to let some stupid video games cause me to lose them (talk about first-world problems). I'm also not going to let gaming get in the way of bettering and further developing myself. I have been getting back to reading for fun again (something I loved since childhood but which took a hit due to gaming) and am going to look for other hobbies and activities to involve myself in so I don't have time to succumb to the craving. I notice that OLGA uses the 12 steps of AA which recommend turning to a Higher Power, which works nicely for me since I'm Muslim. I will continue to call on God to assist me while also taking care of my end of the bargain and working to kick the habit myself.

I know I'm not in as dire straits as others, but I hope that my post will help others who are in a similar situation to mine to wake up and rid themselves of this addiction. You have the rest of your life ahead of you; don't waste it playing video games (that's also a message to myself!).

Thanks for reading and thank you all for posting your stories; they've sure helped me!

P.S.: One particular story that has helped me: <i><a href="http://kotaku.com/5384643/i-kept-playing--the-costs-of-my-gaming-addiction">I Kept Playing -- The Costs of My Gaming Addiction</a></i>

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Sorry, my first post didn't

Sorry, my first post didn't have any paragraph breaks for some reason, which makes it tough to read. If a mod could edit or delete my first post, that'd be great! Here it is again (hopefully properly formatted):

Hello OLGA! I am starting on the road to recovery and since reading the stories of others helped me, I figured I would share mine here as well.

I'm currently in my 20s and have been gaming since I was a wee lad of 7 or 8 (SNES days). I was an exceedingly shy kid, and this shyness lasted well into high school. Since I didn't have much of a social life, video games were my hobby and passion. I've done them all: FPS, RPG, MMORPG, RTS, turn-based strategy, you name it. I'm not going to go into specific games because I feel like mentioning them might trigger withdrawal/longing for some people. Even though I eventually overcame my shyness (may write more on that later), a lifetime habit of playing video games doesn't just go away overnight, so I have continued to play into my college years.

At some point, it finally occurred to me what a waste all that gaming has been. Aside from some increased hand-eye coordination and fast typing skills (thanks MMORPGS), what do I have to show for all those days-on-days of sitting in front of the PC/console? Those countless hours could've been spent on so many things: reading books, spending time with friends, my family, etc. Acknowledging I had a problem and realizing just how much of a timesink gaming had become caused me to derive less pleasure from playing video games. I actually noticed how much time was being lost while I gamed and this only further reduced the satisfaction of playing. Eventually it hit a point where I think I was gaming just out of pure habit, because it was what I and my brain was used to, not because really enjoyed it anymore.

As I indicated before, reading and hearing the stories of others really helped me to acknowledge I had a problem and fear the results if I were to allow my addiction to continue. I think it's easier to say "wow, you have a problem and need to get over it" to someone else than it is to say the same to yourself. Reading/hearing the stories of people losing their jobs, spouses, friends, family, etc. to their addiction was a wakeup call because I realized I had the same problem as them and the tribulations they were going through could easily lay in my own future if I didn't kick the habit.

So, fast forward to the present. I have deleted my video games, Steam, etc., and am looking forward to being video game free for the rest of my life. I have a wonderful loving family, great friends, and am on the verge of completing a degree I am genuinely interested in and getting married. I have a lot of things going for me in my life, and I'm not going to let some stupid video games cause me to lose them (talk about first-world problems). I'm also not going to let gaming get in the way of bettering and further developing myself. I have been getting back to reading for fun again (something I loved since childhood but which took a hit due to gaming) and am going to look for other hobbies and activities to involve myself in so I don't have time to succumb to the craving. I notice that OLGA uses the 12 steps of AA which recommend turning to a Higher Power, which works nicely for me since I'm Muslim. I will continue to call on God to assist me while also taking care of my end of the bargain and working to kick the habit myself.

I know I'm not in as dire straits as some others, but I hope that my post will help others who are in a similar situation to mine to wake up and rid themselves of this addiction. You have the rest of your life ahead of you; don't waste it playing video games (that's also a message to myself!).

Thanks for reading and thank you all for posting your stories; they've sure helped me!

P.S.: One particular story that has helped me: I Kept Playing -- The Costs of My Gaming Addiction: http://kotaku.com/5384643/i-kept-playing--the-costs-of-my-gaming-addiction

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Hi Icandothis, Thank you for

Hi Icandothis,

Thank you for sharing your story. Welcome to OLGA! First, you have found the right place and you are not alone. We have daily meeting at 9pm Eastern, feel free to join if you are interested. The meeting lasts about 1 hour and it is free of charge. You can access the meeting schedule by clicking Meeting tab and access to the chat room by clicking Chat Room tab. I would highly recommend it, this was the first step I took when I found OLGA.

Maggie.

It's good to have goals and dreams, but while you're waiting for things to change, waiting for promises to come to pass, don't be discontent with where you are. Learn to enjoy the season that you're in--Pastor Joel Osteen

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Welcome to OLGA, Ican.  One

Welcome to OLGA, Ican. One of the biggest benefits about being here on OLGA is that it makes it possible to face this challenge with help instead of alone. Meetings are one way to get it, posting in the forums is another, and developing your relationship with your Higher Power is still another. I hope to see you in a meeting some time soon...

When you're going through hell...keep going. --Winston Churchill There is no pit so deep that God is not deeper still --Corrie ten Boom

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