OLGA Reflections for August 12th
Wisdom from the chatroom
Perseverance: Are we willing to persevere in recovery?
Reflection. What is perseverance? Perseverance is continuing on in spite of obstacles. Perseverance is how we gamed. Nothing else mattered to us, when it was time to game. And we kept on, through many obstacles, long past the time when we should have quit. But eventually we quit. And perseverance is also how we quit. We kept going through the withdrawal, through those first terrible days of agitation, sleep disruption, anger, sadness, depression and more.
But we made it through that. So what is perseverance now that we've quit? What does it mean to persevere in recovery? Well, it depends on what recovery is for us. Reovery includes lifestyle changes (such as exercise and healthy diet), meditation, therapy, picking up old or new hobbies and friendships. It includes working our 12 steps: finding our higher power and repairing our relationships, living a life of service to others. Some of us have underlying disorders and even require medication. But all of these activities really come down to one thing: getting help. So to persevere in recovery is to persevere in getting help.
Persevering in this way is hard. Some days things go well; and we are happy with recovery. Other days we feel like throwing in the towel. We must try to store up the feeling from those good days for the bad days, and remember that we are making progress.
As our recovery continues, some things change. There are ways in which we need less help: we may go to fewer meetings, talk to our sponsor less. But some of our recovery activities, such as lifestyle changes, meditation, being honest: these need to continue. Our recovery comes down to a willingness to continue to put in the work. If we become complacent, if we forget to stick with our new way of life, things can become unmanagable again, and we may relapse. Recovery is our foundation for everything else.
What do we get for our perseverance? We get a spiritual life. A life of serenity, of meaning and purpose. A life apart from games. A real life.
Questions: How am I willing to persevere in recovery? What will I do when things become difficult?
Action: Do something today that shows your willingness to persevere in recovery.
Prayer: Higher Power, help me to continue to get the help I need. Give me the willingness to persevere in my recovery.
I am a recovering computer game and gambling addict. My recovery birthday: On May 6, 2012 I quit games and began working a program of recovery through OLGA No computer games or slot games for me since December 12, 2012. No solitaire games with real cards since June 2013.