OLGA Reflections for July 26th
Wisdom from the chatroom
Hope: The promises
If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us--sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.
When we were gaming, we lived lives of fear, of regret, of self-hatred. We feared life, our own past, our own feelings. Every day we did what we knew was bad for us, and we neglected what we knew we should do. We hurt ourselves, and we hurt those who loved us. And we felt powerless to put a stop to it.
When we first came to OLGA, we may have heard the promises, or read them. They were hard to believe at first. We were skeptical. In fact, we did think that they were extravagant, overstated, unrealistic. We had hope, but not that much hope, not that kind of hope. Certainly we hoped for a better life, for some improvement in our situation. Perhaps we even expected a lot of improvement, or to have a "normal" life. But not regretting the past? Inner peace and serenity? Intuitively knowing how to handle situations we face in life? We didn't hope for these things nor see how they were possible.
But we kept coming. The others in the fellowship loved us when we couldn't love ourselves. They listened to us, encouraged us, accepted us. We learned to meditate and pray. We learned to seek out help and to accept what we could not change. We began to release our past fears and resentments, and to live life on a different basis: helping others rather than hurting them. We worked our steps, we made our amends.
And one day, we heard or read the promises again and realized that they were true. They were beginning to happen in our lives. We were gaining peace and serenity, beginning to be able to face life and know what to do. We were releasing the past without regret. Our fear and self-pity were slipping away. We realized that we had changed.
Are these extravagant promises? We think not!
Question: What gives me hope for recovery?
Actions: Ask another recovering gamer what changes they have experienced. Make a list of some of the changes you have seen in yourself.
Prayer: Higher Power, help me to move forward in recovery, taking my next step each day. May I begin to see these promises fulfilled in my life and in the lives of others in the fellowship.
I am a recovering computer game and gambling addict. My recovery birthday: On May 6, 2012 I quit games and began working a program of recovery through OLGA No computer games or slot games for me since December 12, 2012. No solitaire games with real cards since June 2013.