OLGA Reflections: This Too Shall Pass

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OLGA Reflections: This Too Shall Pass

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OLGA Reflections

Wisdom from the chatroom

This Too Shall Pass

Reflection. Many of us have heard this saying before. We've heard it, but we haven't believed it. During active addiction we lived our life by the seat of our pants, desperate to escape each moment of stress, pain or misery. We had no patience, and whatever negative emotion we had, we felt like it would last forever unless we did something now. What we did was escape into another world, our virtual world. We played games to get away from our distress.

Eventually we quit, and faced withdrawal. We left our games and our gaming community. It felt horrible. For most of us, it was the first experience we'd had in a long time where we couldn't just fix our feelings. We had to listen to others; we had to begin to believe that this too shall pass.

As we began to recover, we started to see what we were like when gaming, and what we had become. What we saw was not a pretty picture. Our gaming addiction had created many difficult and painful circumstances in our lives, and had harmed others. This was hard. Sometimes we blamed others. Sometimes we felt that there was no way out. But this part of recovery, where we begin to see more clearly, is important. And those difficulties won't last forever. This, too, shall pass.

Later on in recovery we begin to learn a new way of living. We come to understand that we don't have to be bound by our own feelings and even our own thinking. We may still have urges to game; we certainly still have to face the problems of real life. We are tempted to go back to our old habits; to fix our difficulties the easy way. But we have a program; we have a fellowship; we have a higher power. We finally realize that if we push through, if we keep going in spite of our troubles, those difficulties, those unpleasant thoughts and feelings, will pass. We will be able to live our life on a new basis. We will follow a different path, a path that will make us fit for service to others.

Questions: Do I feel trapped in my thoughts and feelings of the moment? Do I realize that feelings and circumstances are temporary? Am I willing to put aside my thoughts in favor of working my program?

Actions: Write down some of your current difficulties. Try to imagine yourself and your life without them. Write down what you would be like, how things will be different, when they are gone.

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Prayer: Higher power, help me to realize that everything in life changes, and that my difficulties and unpleasant feelings do not have to control me. Give me the strength to do the next right thing.

I am a recovering computer game and gambling addict. My recovery birthday: On May 6, 2012 I quit games and began working a program of recovery through OLGA No computer games or slot games for me since December 12, 2012. No solitaire games with real cards since June 2013.